Found My NIche

I realized something the other day and it helped me to understand some of these odd feelings I've been having. Part of what I am feeling is being unsettled and I've felt this before. It's this feeling that leads me to believe something big is going to happen (or I know something big is going to happen). It's a mixed feeling of being a little sad but also excited- like there's change coming (which I don't like). There are lots of things in my life right now that could be causing this. One, I am working as a temp for a well known charity- I love the work and the people are nice but it will end in early June. Not knowing where I will be working after that could cause this feeling. Two, I don't have a church home- don't get me wrong I have plenty of places to attend church but right now I don't feel called to join any of them. It's a bit like being lost, this certainly could cause the feeling. The other day my Dad, who isn't a Christian said to me, "wold you just find a church and feel better already"- he recognizes that I feel a bit like Shel Silverstein's "Missing Piece meets the big O" (www.shelsilverstein.com). Then the other day, after forcing myself to go to church, I felt like I had part of the answer. At my old church I had served with a great team of people that I loved in a ministry that fit but more importantly my last job (in that same church) had allowed me to find my niche. I was an an assistant to two pastors there and I LOVED my job (even though the office environment was unhealthy and I did not love the office politics but I digress). Now I wouldn't consider myself extremely creative but these guys I worked with are, musically and visually. My niche was serving and assisting the creative people or organizing the creative peeps and I miss this a lot. I love being around people who use their gifts to glorify God and reflect His creativity. Fortunately I am still in contact with these guys- they're like brothers- but I don't work with or get to see them all the time and I miss that. I am praying that God leads me to my church home soon so I can get back to serving my first love- Him!